Random Thoughts from the South

I watched an amazing movie this morning, one that I would highly recommend to anyone. The name of it is "Once." It's about a street musician in Ireland who meets a woman who shares his musical passion. In the span of a week, they begin recording an album together. The beauty of their raw vulnerability with one another was very captivating. Check it out!

"He cries in the corner where nobody sees
he's the kid with the story no one would believe.
He prays every night dear God won't you please
could you send someone here who will love me."

Lord, I like who I am, and how You have created me. I like being a counselor. I like being there for someone who needs me. But, I don't like being alone. I believe that You have created someone for me, and that she isn't ready to meet me yet. Help me to be patient. Help me to trust that she and I will meet. Help me to wait.

"Her office is shrinking a little each day
she's a woman whose husband has run away.
She'll go to the gym after working today
maybe if she was thinner then he would have stayed."

I enjoyed another cigar by the poolside today, listening to this song over and over again. Even though it was overcast, it was still warm and slightly humid. I needed this time. Time away for a break. Time to be with close friends. Time to be alone with you Lord. Time to mourn. Time to be frustrated. Time to question and doubt. Time to hear from You. Time to sense You. Time to cry out to You.

"He's waiting to die as he sits all alone
he's a man in a cell who regrets what he's done.
He utters a cry from the depths of his soul
oh lord, forgive me, I want to go home.
Then he heard a voice
somewhere deep inside.
And it said, I know you've murdered and I know you've lied
and I've watched you suffer all of your life.
And now that you'll listen, I'll tell you that
I will love you for you
not for what you have done or what you will become.

Lord, I want someone to love me the way that You love me. I want to love her the way that You love her.

"I will love you for you
I will give you the love, the love that you never knew.
I will love you for you
not for what you have done or what you will become.
I will love you for you
I will give you the love, the love that you never knew."

(Song lyrics courtesy of J.J. Heller's "Love Me")